Intimacy With Our Creator

Why is it so hard to listen to God? Is it because we never try? Or maybe we never knew we could. To hear God, straight from the source. That is what I need in my life and what I have been missing for most of it. I have always believed that God was there for us, believed that he was real and that he cared for us. But I always struggle with really getting to know Him. I look back and wonder how many messes might I have avoided if I had just stopped and asked God what to do. Life is hard enough even with help. Why would we try and do it all on our own. This is where I am at, learning to listen, learning to trust, learning to follow.

It has been a rough year for me and my wife and kids. A lot has happened. In all the craziness I grew lazy with my relationship with God. Other things got in the way. I stopped making time for God. 

This is a little update of what has happened and where things are at. I also want to share a couple songs that are good pictures of where I am at in my walk and that have helped me pull through. 

A little over a year ago, my father-in-law past away. It was a very hard time for Rebekah and a hard time for the whole family. After dealing with that and all the craziness of raising a baby and a toddler, I realized that, due to some poor decisions and bad money management on my part we couldn't afford to live in the house that we were planning on staying in for the next four to five years. So, in January we moved in with my mother-in-law who was nice enough to let us invade her home. Now we are trying to get out of debt and figuring out what the next few years will look like.

That is some of what has happened that has brought me to the place of realizing how badly I need to stay focused on God. How I can't keep going along, trying to do the best I can. I need to be communicating with God on a personal level, hearing His voice, and asking Him what he wants me to do and what He wants for my family.

I heard this song and God kind of woke me up:

Then He used this song to start speaking to my heart and drawing me back to Him:

And this song is a good picture of where I am at now:

So, that is what has been happening and where I am at. I should be posting more regularly again from now on.